Alan Levesque, Musician / Boston, USA
Have you ever had to deal with losing your job? Have you ever gotten divorced? Have you ever had to deal with the death of a parent or loved one? Have you ever had an accident so serious that it required multiple surgeries and a lengthy recovery?
Well, I experienced all of these things in the course of 3 years in my lifetime. I’m not sharing my story to get your sympathy. My intent is to illustrate just how dark and hopeless a man’s life can get and that there is a way out of the pain.
All of the events I mention happened so fast, I didn’t know what to do. Since I was a very young boy, I had always dealt with depression and anxiety. I also had skin problems and digestive problems because of the stress in my life. After all of these events, all of my problems got worse. I was at the lowest point in my life. I was so depressed I was actually frozen. I couldn’t answer the phone or go out with friends. Some days I couldn’t get out of bed or find a reason to stop sleeping. I didn’t eat. I had trouble finding any happiness in life. I was on medication for pain, anxiety, depression, my skin condition and high blood pressure. I tried exercise and changing my diet to healthier foods but all of these changes were only bringing temporary relief. I was miserable and withdrawn and didn’t want to be around anyone. Even when I was around others, I still felt lonely and sad. My doctor diagnosed me with severe depression and this scared me even more. I really felt like there must be a point to life; I needed a purpose for living.
While I was recovering from my accident, I had a lot of time to sit and think about my next step. It was the darkest time in my life and I remember thinking that of all the things I’d done – joining the Army, going to college, my career and my marriage – nothing I’d achieved brought me any fulfillment. I achieved many goals in my lifetime but nothing ever brought me the satisfaction that I thought it would once I attained what I was after. I found myself becoming reflective and seeking spirituality. I was looking for something that would give my life a purpose.
In the town I live in, this meditation center had a sign up for a free lecture. I’d driven past the Center 3 or 4 times that particular week and thought that this meditation might be a good thing to bring some peace and spirituality back into my life. Finally, one day I stopped in and listened to the lecture and I can tell you, honestly, I didn’t know what to make of a lot of the information that was shared with me. The one thing that I did connect with was that I felt like I was all alone because I was living in my own little world in my head. I knew that I had built a world in my mind of how I thought everything should be and nothing and nobody could ever match my view of my world.
That one connection was enough to get me to sign up and meditate for the first time. I meditated for two classes in a row that evening and began throwing away my remembered thoughts. The next day, I found myself running back to meditate again. The relief was that significant. After a week of meditating, I started to feel brighter and realized that I wasn’t alone at all; I belonged and was part of this world. Everything began to look beautiful in my life. People were beautiful. Houses were beautiful. The sky was beautiful!
I’d never felt this way before and all of the medication, exercise, diets and doctors that I’d dealt with in my entire life had never been able to make me feel this positive and connected to the world. None of these things worked. They were all just coating the real problem and giving me a temporary feeling of relief. I knew at that point that this meditation was the reason I was getting better and so I meditated diligently for the next year. In that time, I was able to get back in the game – back into life! I got off of all my medication and felt even better. My doctor was shocked when he saw how positive and happy I was. My blood pressure returned to normal. My signs of anxiety and depression had faded away. For the first time in my life, my skin was clear and back to normal. It was a miracle! I realized that all of my life, I was living in my own dark picture world in my mind and that was what made me so sick. None of the medications I’d been prescribed or any of the doctors I had seen were able to make me feel any better, but here I was – finally cured.
I found peace, fulfillment, TRUE HAPPINESS and a purpose for my life. By discarding all of my thoughts, pictures, memories and standards, I was starting to feel the benefits of a healthier, cleaner mind and my physical body was able to function properly, ultimately healing all of my ailments – both mental and physical.
I started to wake up and stopped living in my own thoughts all of the time. My relationships improved. People asked me why I was smiling and I didn’t even realize that I was smiling. I began to work more effectively. I became able to accept others as they are and accept the world as it is without the judgment I used to impose on everything in my life. You can’t imagine how grateful I am to this meditation. Freedom from my own miserable thoughts has brought peace and wisdom into my life.
As I said earlier, I’m not sharing my story to get your sympathy. I’m sharing it as a testimonial of what this meditation has done for me and what it will do for you. If you are reading this and you identify with any part of my story, I strongly urge you to begin this meditation immediately! (Even if you don’t identify with any part of my story, I strongly urge you to begin this meditation immediately!) In our society, there are so many people who look completely happy and successful from the outside because they earn a lot of money or have a great career or because they have an expensive car and a beautiful family. You may be surprised to learn that because we are all living in our own dark mind world, everyone struggles with pain, sadness and loneliness. The urgency of my condition is what drove me to find this meditation faster than others.
There’s a saying that if there are 7 billion people living in this world then there are 7 billion realities. That means 7 billion people all living in their own personal mind worlds. It’s now time for everybody to stop living in their human mind world and co-exist together in reality. No more pain. No more stress. No more burdens. Only love, peace and liberation from pain and struggle.
Even if you can’t accept everything you’ve read in this testimonial or what you hear in the lecture, please just try this method and see for yourself. I promise you will understand everything that you question as you clean your mind. In my case, my mind was so full of stress and pictures it was making me sick – even killing me. I’m not quite finished with this meditation method, but I now know my purpose in life and it brings such great freedom and peace. If I walked out of the lecture that day and hadn’t begun meditating, I don’t even know if I’d still be alive today. Please know that you don’t have to suffer or live with the pain in your mind world. This meditation saved my life and it can save yours too.